19 January 2018

A Letter to Myself 12 Months Ago

Writing a letter to myself is something I've wanted to do for a while, and although I had imagined myself writing one to my future self, I've ended up writing one to my past self. A letter to the person I was this time last year. I'll probably write one for me to read in the future one day too, but for now, here's a recap of how much I've changed in the past year... in the form of a letter.

You're about to face one of the most challenging years of your life. 2017 will be full of stress, late nights studying and scrunched up pieces of paper covering your floor. It will be full of adrenaline and fears, but it will also be one of your most rewarding years. If only you knew how much you will achieve. 2017 will be worth it at the end, you've just got to keep going.

You probably already know this, but you're going to regret not revising for GCSE's early at the start of Year 11. All those revision plans you made in summer 2016 went to waste and now you're going to stress revise. You keep telling yourself that you are going to revise tomorrow, but stop lying to yourself. It's a good couple of months before you'll start yet. Stress revision is going to start to kick in and then you won't stop. You won't be able to stop yourself, the fear of failing is going to overpower your brain. You are going to revise until 3am every night for the exam the day after. What you don't understand is that every minute you're staying up past 12, you're losing marks. You will do better if you listen to the people around you and go to bed... but you're not going to listen.

Throughout all this stressful revision, you're going to build the closest of friendships that you'll ever have. Late night Skype calls that started early in the day with the best of friends. It's these Skype calls - these late-night, stress-filled conversations - that you'll somehow miss next year. Even the silly little tensions that build throughout it. You'll miss it all.

The summer holidays will be the best few months of your life. Even better than what you have imagined, but also so much shorter than what you have imagined. Oh, and stop worrying about NCS. You're going to say yes at the end and it will be one of the best decisions you'll ever make. You are going to spend the best 4 weeks with the best people; you're going to make incredible friends that, yes, will drift off at the end of it all... but at the time you won't know that. You're also going to sleep in a room knowing there's a spider... yup, believe it or not, that's actually going to happen.

Photography will become one of your biggest passions. You're going to go from hating photography to having an Instagram account with a following that has more than doubled in number as well as a skill you thought you'd never have.

GCSE results day is also this year and surprisingly you'll actually want to open the envelope. You'll want to get it over and done with. When you first see your results, you're going to hate them. You are going to cry for hours on end. It's not completely what you wanted, you've dropped in subjects that you've worked so hard at for 2 years, but you don't realise how well you've done yet. A few days later you'll be the happiest you've ever been and you'll feel so proud of that piece of paper listing letters (and numbers...).

Erm, don't want to scare you, but GCSE's are nothing compared to A-levels. Yes, life sucks. :( Forget making time for homework and revision... in Sixth Form you'll have to learn to make time for, well, 'free time'. You'll realise that for some reason because you took 'science' subjects you'll tend to get a load of tests and you'll actually have to revise because suddenly everyone has started trying, everything has gotten harder, and everybody expects you to do well. You'll probably have breakdowns on the daily about maths, but just remember you CAN do maths and you WILL do well if you try.

Good luck for 2017. I promise that although it seems horrible at the time, it will be a year that you miss. You'll get through exams... they end eventually. And please don't wish summer away. :)

How was your 2017? 

Also, I quickly wanted to say thank you to Hebah for nominating us for the mystery blogger award. She's quickly become one of my favourite bloggers and blogger friends so I would love it if you could go and check out her blog: Hebah Pervais. I've actually already done this tag before so if you would like to read that post click here.